I am tired of all the distractions. A lot of my friends are great at decluttering their homes and becoming minimalists. I want that too. We have way too much stuff, and it steals our joy and dominates our time. Recently though, I have been focused on the much deeper issue of decluttering my soul.
There are so many distractions that rob me of a deep relationship with God, and I am sick of it. Really. It's starting to tick me off. I am so distracted with what people expect of me, and whether or not something I do will "offend" them. I have been discouraged to the point of paralyzation in my relationship with God.
I am 36 years old, and I want to live my life!! Who did God make me to be? What are my strengths? Who am I beyond "Mom"? What did God have in mind when he made me? I want to fearlessly pursue the answers to these questions. I want to let go of the distractions. I want to be more real than I've ever been.
What does this mean practically? It means that I will stop shackling my life to man's law, and enjoy my liberty in Jesus. This will upset some people. I'm going to start living authentically and stop playing the game of pleasing others. I want to please Jesus. I don't need to please you. If I am pleasing Jesus, but still disappointing you, then you need to reassess your standards because yours shouldn't be higher than His.
I'm not a theologian. I just want to let go of the extra-Biblical standards that have been holding me back and discouraging me from closeness with Jesus on a daily basis.
Because it's not about listening to super conservative music or staying away from movie theaters or not getting a piercing. It's not about abstaining from alcohol or dancing. It's not about how long my skirt is or if my swimsuit is 1 piece or not. It's not about having tattoo free skin. It's not even about having as many children as my womb can carry.
Although it's not wrong to hold to these standards, if they become more important than what God wants me to do, they become idols, and I become a Pharisee.
It's about being a source of love to a world that is broken and hurting. It's about being Jesus's hands and feet. It's about finding strength in Jesus Christ to reject fear and embrace love. It's about trusting Him, taking risks and rocking the boat. It is about seeing people as souls, not opportunities for judgment.
I want to be free. I WANT TO LIVE! Jesus says He is the way, the truth and the LIFE. I want to have what I've seen in others. I want my children to grow up knowing what is truly important, and not be overwhelmed with the standards that man tries to burden them with.
This post will certainly be frowned upon by some, even a disappointment to others, but I feel like it is necessary if I am going to grow.
With all the pain and violence in the world, I pray that my life would be a source of love and healing. That's all. I want God to use me to reach others with His love. I want my life to give others hope that there is a God that loves them and that can rescue them from the evil in this world.
There are so many distractions that rob me of a deep relationship with God, and I am sick of it. Really. It's starting to tick me off. I am so distracted with what people expect of me, and whether or not something I do will "offend" them. I have been discouraged to the point of paralyzation in my relationship with God.
I am 36 years old, and I want to live my life!! Who did God make me to be? What are my strengths? Who am I beyond "Mom"? What did God have in mind when he made me? I want to fearlessly pursue the answers to these questions. I want to let go of the distractions. I want to be more real than I've ever been.
What does this mean practically? It means that I will stop shackling my life to man's law, and enjoy my liberty in Jesus. This will upset some people. I'm going to start living authentically and stop playing the game of pleasing others. I want to please Jesus. I don't need to please you. If I am pleasing Jesus, but still disappointing you, then you need to reassess your standards because yours shouldn't be higher than His.
I'm not a theologian. I just want to let go of the extra-Biblical standards that have been holding me back and discouraging me from closeness with Jesus on a daily basis.
Because it's not about listening to super conservative music or staying away from movie theaters or not getting a piercing. It's not about abstaining from alcohol or dancing. It's not about how long my skirt is or if my swimsuit is 1 piece or not. It's not about having tattoo free skin. It's not even about having as many children as my womb can carry.
Although it's not wrong to hold to these standards, if they become more important than what God wants me to do, they become idols, and I become a Pharisee.
It's about being a source of love to a world that is broken and hurting. It's about being Jesus's hands and feet. It's about finding strength in Jesus Christ to reject fear and embrace love. It's about trusting Him, taking risks and rocking the boat. It is about seeing people as souls, not opportunities for judgment.
I want to be free. I WANT TO LIVE! Jesus says He is the way, the truth and the LIFE. I want to have what I've seen in others. I want my children to grow up knowing what is truly important, and not be overwhelmed with the standards that man tries to burden them with.
This post will certainly be frowned upon by some, even a disappointment to others, but I feel like it is necessary if I am going to grow.
With all the pain and violence in the world, I pray that my life would be a source of love and healing. That's all. I want God to use me to reach others with His love. I want my life to give others hope that there is a God that loves them and that can rescue them from the evil in this world.
